So here I am…

Setting:
Dining room…
Head in the clouds and what not & the time is 5:47AM [July 31, 2009]. I’m currently listening to Amy Winehouse. I have a habit of describing setting, don’t know why; But I’m telling the story dammit.

Thoughts:
Let me script this the best way I can…
It’s amazing how you can experience something, but there be a whole ‘nother depth and field to it that you are not experiencing; And what you have may be great, but that other half you are not experiencing be a hell of a whole lot better. As well, how the other half may help you grow mentally, maybe even spiritually, and make you think and, or feel something you never did before. You don’t know what doors are open until you actually go out and find them, or let them come to you. But for those doors to come to you, you have to let them. Fighting and, or stubbornness will result in …jack shit. The leap of faith part is what makes you shit in your pants, never the experience. Fear is a bitch, and can ruin your entire life if you let it.

Personally, my arms are not always open and I’m learning how that can affect not only myself, but also my surroundings. Even people in the surroundings. Now for me to find the balance in being open yet seclusive. *Light bulb deads*